Unbelievable~~~HELP!!!

Even myself cant believe I make this decision, sth beyond my limitation...

Feel so lonely, sad, suffering and unhappy-_-

Is it worth??M I stupid???

Tay, I need encouragement!!!!I need a lot a lot of encouragement and support.

I dunno how to describe my feeling but i just dun feel like going back but i really miss him so much!!!~~~What kind of life I am having now???

I wanna get out of it!!!!Help me help me.....onli you can help me-_-

怎么那么可怜啊？？？

本来打算为自己的生日送上一份小小的惊喜，当天就不会那么伤心绝望的~~~

想要买下自己喜欢的礼物和为自己送上祝福满满的小卡片。。。。怎知道天不作美。。

喜欢的项链没有了~~上面的水晶颜色还是粉红色的，代表着十月份生日的我,我好喜欢哦。。。

难道我是注定要在每一个对我来说那么重要的日子里都和眼泪一起渡过吗？？？？

那么努力的想让自己开心点。。。怎么那么难？？？天啊！！！不要让我的生日来临好不好啊！！！铁定又会是悲伤难忘的一天~~~~不要来临！！！

Season changes as well as people

It's fall now...the weather turns colder and it is so windy.... autumn marks the transition from summer to winter...

Many people feel that fall is the most beautiful season of the year. With the leaves on trees and shrubs changing color from green into pale yellow, orange and red. It seems like they are celebrating the season of mists and mellow fruitfulness. It is so pretty when the sun in the sky shines through the wonderful color of autumnal foliage.

As time goes by, people change....

Does friendship or a relationship fade as time goes by too???

yes, it is~~~

Starting to change, change to a stranger that you think you know them so well but in fact,

you are not......Everything starts to change.....he/she is no longer the people who you met at first...they change to someone you totally dunno who are they. Or may be this is their real identities~~~Haiz....-_-

spend a lot lately~~~

USD 500 for new laptop
175 for human anatomy textbook
75 for external hardisk
130 for monitor
70 for hyvee
hmm......gonna sell everything to earn some money!!!!!
Tay...u r rite...i spend money so easily.

Such a busy and tiring week~~~

OMG, I was late for my exam at 8am this morning, i woke up at 7.45am.......
trying to get up at 6.30am in the morning to revise everything but end up "turn off the alarm n sleep back".....long time didnt experience this. really very tired!!!!
everything doesnt seem go very well.....haiz....
For the exam...most probably get a very low marks.
After the exam, felt like calling back home,mum was watching tv and she was so nervous when I said I was late for exam-_-. She said:" dun make urself so tired."Dun worry mum, I always know how to handle my stuff~~NO matter how tired and how miserable my life is, I will never give up my study^-^ After this, I have another exam later...after that need to prepare for my maitre d 2morrow. Really miss my last semester in inti b4 I came here.
Woke up whenever I want, make up myself nicely and go to class twice per week.After class, went to my singing center and practised....sing sing sing and enjoyed my time wif my teachers & frens wif same interest. Next,had my lunch, went back n slept again(most of the time went sing k wif my frens) .In the evening, went for aerobic and yoga...at nite will be my jazz class. after that, play badminton and finally supper!!! Although it was such a busy day,i never feel tired. Life is so wonderful and was the most happiest time in my life
for once, singing is my life,I did everythin just bcoz of singing. But now, bf is my life, I did everythin bcoz of him, yet I 4got the feeling of happiness.

Swimming....a way to release stress & forget sth???

Just back from swimming~~~feeling not so great. Tired and headache...
Someone being chased out from the swimming pool just now bcoz she just stand inside the pool, afraid to swim!!!I think the women locker is the heaven for guy...Most of the gals are naked when they r bathin n changing clothes.Included all skin types: black, white, brown, old, fresh etc....
GUyssss.......the locker room is just right beside ur locker room but u have no chance seeing all this pretty gals.....haiz....
ppl say we can try to swim whenever we r unhappy and stress.
yes, it is true but it is only when u r swimming. After u have done, U need to face ur problem again!!!!
trying to forget something, trying to ignore sth, trying to pretend i dunno everythin, trying not to be so sensitive,trying to make her invisible...
However.....everythin is just happen right in front of me...with my eyes seeing and my heart feeling it-_-I hope I am wrong, I hope my feeling is false, I hope I never see anything~~

Les~~~Why???

Why some gal choose to become a les???
"Becoz I was badly hurt by my ex bf. Gals always understand gals more but guy never know wad we r thinking abt." she said that.
A friend of mine asking me:" if I tell u I am a les, will u still accept me as ur fren?"
Of course I will~~I think is ok but will I allow myself to do that as well? NO ba......
I saw quite a couple of examples. They live more happily wif their "gf" compared to last time when they r wif their bf.Hmm...
I m wondering will I do the same this as them in future???U know gals always do something out of ppl's expectation.
Well, may b the first second third guys that you met hurt you...but it doesnt mean the fourth fifth will do the same thing as well....keep finding, searching, treating ppl with ur true true heart, I think U will meet your Mr Right!!!
may be U will get tired one day of being hurt by guy....then I think I will choose not to involve in a relationship anymore rather than choosing to become a les coz I am goin to disappoint those who love me especially my family members.
Always remember that~~although nobody love us, cherish our effort...we need to love ourselves!!!For me,I will put all my effort in singing (singing is great).make myself even happier and prettier~~I want to let those who dun cherish me to regret for the rest of their life. PISSSED OFF!!!